So Much to Learn

I'm just a traveler, my journey so long
Through all of life's perils, I must remain strong
Some days I could swear, I was just born to lose
It justifies all of the drugs that I use
Although I believe, and the lord is my savior
It never has altered, all of my bad behavior
I'm coming to grips with myself at last
As I no longer am able, to live in that path
My time here on earths, getting shorter each day
Sometimes I feel myself, slipping away
For those who still suffer, I care a great deal
Not for liars and thieves, who deceive and who steal
Life is too short, and there is so much to learn
Beware of ol Statan, or you'll surely burn
Remember sometimes, life can be so unfair
The key is understanding, what blows in the air
Relax, take it easy, and don't lose your drive
Through all tribulations, it's great being alive

                  Ricky Z

Slipping Away

It’s no wonder our nation, so full of confusion

Our leaders have lied, with all their illusions

We really don’t know who to trust anymore, it seems no politician is worth voting for

All empty promises no real results, while religions now  nothing but glorified cults

Foreign investors are buying us out, we seemed to have lost what this country is about

Our homeless they die on our streets everyday, as our government keeps giving billions away

Will they ever know and will they ever see, just what they’ve done to the land of the free

It seems to be getting much worse every day, what our fore fathers fought for is slipping away

The war that’s on drugs, is but one more diversion, to raise up more taxes for their next excursion

It seems to be getting much worse every year, as our jails are all full and our prisons are near

Will they ever know and will they ever see, this what they’ve done to the land of the free

The people have given as much as they can, we must ban together, we must make a stand

For if we don’t soon, I fear their’s a day, when we all see our freedom, has just slipped away

                                        Ricky

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I Am Ready

I no longer need, to live in the past

As for any more chances, this is probably my last

Changed the course of my life, as I burned every bridge

Never seemed to be able, to top that list ridge

Without getting better, I never got well

Though, my ship, it  came in, it never set sail

So now here I sit, in a life full of doubt

Not sure I can change, what it’s all been about

But I won’t stop trying, and like it or not

When I meet sober people, I now like what they’ve got

And although it takes time, it’s still on my side

If  I am worthy enough, to take that last ride

And that I’m working hard now, to mend those old sails

To ensure that I’m worthy, that my challenges prevails

                                   Ricky

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It Comes From Within

For some many years, all the drugs I abused

Those calculated risks, and the triggers I’ve used

No matter who suffered, I had it my way

And for those who got hurt, oh well one more day

This pattern I lived by, went on for so long

Until it was just me, the rest dead and gone

But that didn’t stop me, for the addict I was

Friends said why you don’t stop, my answer – because

I hated myself, but I just couldn’t stop

In my basement room, I drew up my last drop

Never satisfied, I always had to have more

Never thought for a minute, that I could die poor

But then came the day, my last overdose

Saved by paramedics, this one was to close

From that day on, I made an amend

That I would never put a needle in my arm again

But I couldn’t stop, so I dropped down a gear

That needle turned to a pipe, captain Morgan’s to beer

Chase senses and dope scenes, it was starting again

I was a true born loser, never destined to win

I was unable to save me, but I got one last try

I was so sick of my life, and of just getting by

I am now on a road, where it goes I am not sure

I am still a little skeptical, if there’s really a cure

But this time I am trying, and for all of my sins

If I am to stay clean, if must come from within

                                 Ricky

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